Sunday 27 December 2009

The music now is shit. So are the films. We have a case of quantity not quality. Sometimes I feel I've got so much junk that it's a burden to have all this crap, and I've got less then most people I know.

I got rid of my entire DVD collection last year, and most of my CD's. I also took 3 boxes of books to the book recycling bin to go to charity shops. I now have one shelf of books and it still seems to much. I have piles of crafting stuff for my hobbies and it really frustrating me as I never seem to get round to doing anything anymore.

Friday 16 October 2009

Can't be arsed

My blogging has some what ceased, because I can't be arsed at the moment. I'm too busy having a life. But maybe I will when I can be bothered.

Thursday 26 March 2009

Too much spin put it in the bin.

Over the years I've become more and more distrustful of anything that is said in the media. I've got to the point now where I believe virtually nothing that I read in the news. After all how do we really know anything we read is true. Unless I witness an event myself I will distrust what is written about an event. I believe that some stories are true but I can't distinguish between what are scare tactics and propaganda and what isn't so the best policy is to believe nothing and trust no one. This kind of attitude is really no hope for anyone. But that's what happens in a climate of terror created by our very own politicians and media. Knowing that petty bullies have the power to spy on and harass it's citizens on a whim.

Considering how publicised in the media the RIPA is. I was surprised to hear a council worker saying they never heard of this RIPA order when I phoned them to find out if I had had one on me. I thought that I may have been investigated as I have been harassed and followed by a group of people who I don't know over the last two years. If it is part of some civilian spy program or harass antisocial people in the community as Jacki Smith suggested doing, then I neither guilty of any crimes, and I'm not antisocial. I find it strange that I should be a victim of some new social movement believing it's doing something good for society. It verges on George Orwell's vision in 1984, only smothering people with the right thing to do. How does anyone know what the right thing to do is? The right thing for one person is not the right thing for another. It's not like any of our leaders are excelling in their professions and doing a great job for the country, so how the hell do they know what is right for anyone living in it?

Labour have got to be the worst, most incompetent bunch of idiots I have ever known. I'm certain it's one of their groups of workers doing this. They are wasting even more of taxpayers money on some kind of social engineering experiment. I sound like I'm getting into some conspiracy theory territory now. That definitely means it can't possibly be true. It's not in the realms of physical possibility that people could follow me around and threaten me. But I'm getting some of this kind of reaction when I tell people. I could understand people not taking me seriously if I said Satanist aliens abducted my cat and shaved his head and tattooed strange symbols on his anus. I even have evidence of their activities, so it can't possibly be true. I am actually rather amused at the strange lengths these people have gone to. I was only joking about the Labour conspiracy bit. Whoever is doing this to me must have alot more to fear than me or why would they bother. Human behaviour is a very curious thing. I've never seen monkeys leaving the comfort of their family to pursue a task that brings them more bits of paper than they could possibly need. Monkeys don't blog either.

Wednesday 25 March 2009

A fantastic quote by John Holt

I'm not really into quoting other people as I feel independent thought and expression are the best ways to think for ourselves and come to our own conclusions. But this quote from John Holt who advocates unschooling just says it all for me at the moment.

"A child whose life is full of the threat and fear of punishment is locked into babyhood. There is no way for him to grow up, to learn to take responsibility for his life and acts. Most important of all, we should not assume that having to yield to the threat of our superior force is good for the child's character. It is never good for anyone's character."
John Holt

Monday 23 February 2009

Immoderately moderate

When governments who are supposed to be moderate act like they are trying to take control of everything, then other more extreme parties seem more moderate in comparison. Just a thought, thank goodness we have the Conservatives.

Sunday 15 February 2009

I bought a magazine and I now want to moan about it

I was in WHSmith and saw a magazine called psychologies. I decided to buy it because I thought it might be an interesting read. I got home sat down and flicked through, only to find it wasn't what I expected from the magazines title at all. I expected it to be a medical based magazine detailing progresses in the field of psychology. Instead I find it to be a highbrow version of Woman's Own with enormous amount of psychobabble written by psychotherapists. With the intent of telling us how to live.

One example was an article entitled WE WILL SURVIVE by phychotherapist Derek Draper. Who had a positive message of look on the bright side of this recession and gave examples of his patients situations. One of which was of a woman who would not be getting her 5 figure bonus this year and could not afford a new kitchen. Well it really gave me a perspective of how the other half live. Take my situation.

I lived in a hostel for eight months. Then I got a flat in Rusholme, Manchester. On my first night there I had only a bed and a cooker the council rented to me and 2 bin liners of belonging which I had in the hostel. I got a £600 grant to furnish my flat. I loved that flat, apart from the unwanted visitors, namely cockroaches. I was given traps for them, which were just boxes with really sticky stuff in them and if the cockroaches walked on them, they would get stuck. They got full very quickly and I would watch them wriggling around trying to break free. They would stay alive for weeks. I loved to walk up to the curry mile and smell all the delicious spicy foods, and watch the alcoholic Muslim with a can in his hand, walking in the middle of the road chanting at the buses and holding up all the traffic. My neighbours were great. I lived next door to a polish man who I hear coughing all day, he always said hello. I would often see him taking down his net curtains in his underwear, in the summer. And my other neighbour who would steal my post at every opportunity. The guy who lived there before me had died due to alcoholism. The council told before I moved in, they found him rotting, so they had to fumigate the place. One day a woman knocked on my door to tell me all about it and she also told me he used to shag his cat. There was a crack house across the way until it mysteriously got burned down. The occasional echo of gunshots from the gun battles in the near by Moss Side.

I met my partner we had a child and I got a move to a 2 bedroom flat. We lived there for a year before we moved out to private rented accommodation. We moved in desperation after our teenage neighbour had parties all weekend and big gangs of teenagers would congregate outside the flat. They smashed windows, were loud all night, and one time made a fire on my front doorstep.

In the rented accommodation I live now this area is quiet but the house is in a terrible state of disrepair. The walls are crumbling, the whole house needs re pointing, the window frames are rotting. I've been waiting 4 years for the landlord to fix a broken window. The stairs went through and it took 2 years for them to be replaced. We have a huge damp problem as someone had concreted up all the air bricks. The gas fire was condemned last year and they put central heating in. The door frames are all wonky. When I put cupboards on one side of the bedroom they fall over because the house is leaning to one side. And as for kitchen the cupboard doors don't even meet in the middle. But I don't moan about it. I think it's hilarious. Especially the way the doors have been hung. My bedroom door hinge has 2 screws in one hole that are hanging out and look like they've been hammered in. The door moves on and off the frame as I open and close it, and does not shut properly. Last year the living room door handle fell off and I couldn't open the door. In the end we had to kick it open. The front door has swollen up and it hardly closes. I had to rub wax all around it. Also we live near a sewage works and it stinks in the summer. But I don't see these things as problems. I do look on the bright side.

Tuesday 3 February 2009

Is success the worst thing for children?

Well I read this article in the Guardian. Apparently our selfishness is ruining childhood for children today. Whilst I agree with the point about Mothers going out to work whilst the children are still babies and toddlers is wrong, and that there are too many tests in school, I disagree with the rest of the article. I am also very skeptical about the motives of this charity. They are allied with the church of England, I distrust anyone who is allied with a Christian organisation, and is promoting the institution of marriage which I don't believe in. And is now come up with the idea of civil "non-religious" birth ceremony, which is just the same as a christening. It seems to me they are trying to preach religious way of life and pretending it's nothing to do with religion.

So lets look at the facts children are pressured to do well in school. Yes they are and tragically some of them take their own life because of this pressure, there may be other factors involved. After speaking to a few middle class teenagers I get the impression that they are pretty depressed, stressed and feel pressured. But all teenagers go through alot of emotions and are well known for being grumpy. I do think the testing in schools is over the top, that was one of the reasons I am home educating my children. As well as the schools being pretty bad where I live.

Women are now more financially independent so they don't need men and many children don't live with their Father's. Also many women are going out to work whilst their children are still babies.

I think women should have to look after their own children for at least until they are 2. I think it's bad for a child to hardly see their Mother. I think Women should have the choice of either having a career or a family I don't think they should have both, at least not when they have very young children. I also think that mother's who choose to stay at home to look after their children should not be made to feel like a second class citizen, and should be valued in society. It seems that only working Mum's get any praise, but what is worthwhile about leaving you're 1 year old with a childminder, or at a nursery whilst you are working in an office or a call centre, or some crappy service industry job. What a waste of time that you will never have back with your children. I have never spent any time away from my children apart from when they are in bed at night. But I do not trust the schools to look after my children let alone a childminder. Who knows how they are treating your children , or what ideas they are giving them.

I thought the idea of no advertisement for under 12's was very strange. How are they going to put that into practice? Ban advertisements on telly before the watershed. Never put adverts on billboards again. Or do they just mean advertisements aimed at children? I still don't see how that helps. If my children see something advertised that they want. I say NO, simple. Unless I decide they can have it. But I have never had to, since we don't have TV.

I think the biggest problem is that parents do not talk to their children or give them any guidance. Also children don't seen to be able to have any fun anymore because of a million safety laws and curfew's. They are saying children are suffering, but it seems to me that adults are suffering too. The pursuit of money is put above everything even happiness and love. Everyday I see miserable faces. And that's usually the adults, the children seem alot more lively. But they must think I wonder if I'm going to turn into a sour faced workaholic like my Mum when I grow up?

Thursday 29 January 2009

The Labour Religion

One thing I've noticed about Labour is they operate much like a religion. They preach to us like religious nutters do, saying we must give up smoking, drink less, eat 5 fruit and veg a day, and the new one is this change 4 life campaign. They let councils spy on us, they take away as many rights as they can get away with in the guise of combating terrorists. Well we had far more incidents of terrorism under the conservatives by the IRA, and they didn't bring in all these laws.

To me it's exactly the same way organised religion operates. Religion has the threat of hell and the devil. Labour has the threat of terrorists, which I know is actually more real than hell or the devil, but they are using it as a means to scare people and take away our freedom. I think that the terrorists have already won because the governments actions have caused a climate of terror and oppression in this country. I know this as my family and I were harassed for a short time, as people were abusing powers they had been given.

Religion preaches morals and the right way to live. Labour also like to tell us how we should live and are taking away our freedom of choice to eat want we want, smoke where we like, and watch what we want. Most of the top Labour politicians are religious, so it's no wonder they run their party like one.

Ideally I would love all politicians to be atheists, I can't see how having a religious belief is any advantage to running a country. Especially a country where most people are probably atheists or just not bothered.

Tuesday 27 January 2009

A Poem Inspired by Our Great Leader

This poem is truly awful, but not as awful as the man who inspired it.

There was a clown
Called Gordon Brown
Who made all the children frown
For you see this clown
Had spent all their future money
So the children did not think
This clown was funny
So the adults asked him to leave
But this was a concept
He could not conceive
For he found it quite hard to believe
That all the people felt deceived

Monday 26 January 2009

Money Saving Tips

A few tips to help in the recession, as well as helping the environment too.

1.Buy second hand, join a freecycle if you have one in your area, they are on yahoo groups and basically it's people giving away things they don't want anymore for free. Buy from charity shops.

2. Make do and mend rather than getting brand new stuff, or get it secondhand.

3. Look in skips sometimes you find real treasures in them, I got a beautiful pair of metal dining chairs all that was wrong with them was they needed new seat covers.

4. Buy from markets, buy all the cheap discount food in shops, or buy the no frills. Grow your own vegetables. Learn about nature and it's abundant and neglected food source. I make dandelion coffee by roasting dandelion roots. But be sure you definitely know it's edible before eating it and some plants have to be cooked or prepared in a certain way to make them edible. And don't pick from the roadside.

5. Don't buy top brand items, or designer clothes, you can even learn to dress make if you have the time and make your own clothes. Or even knit your own clothes. Or buy plain clothes and customise them. Also it's easy to learn how to alter clothes if they don't fit properly, or even take them to an alteration shop.

6. Buy a massive stock of food that way you'll be paying last years prices, and if you get it wholesale it will be even cheaper, obviously you do it with things like tins and dried food.

7. Cook from scratch, don't buy take aways.

8. Buy electrical goods such as computers, consoles, DVD players that are older, there is no need to buy the latest gadgets when you can wait for them to go down in price a year later or get them second hand. My computer is a dinosaur that was given to me it was an ex-company computer that would have been thrown away.

9. Generally be thrifty, buy on eBay, make your own stuff, it's easy and there are lots of internet resources on how to make anything you want to. Even homemade beauty products and jewellery

Sunday 25 January 2009

Dreaming of Hugh

Yesterday I noticed a strange advertisement of Hugh Fearnly-Whittingstall and some other TV chefs in a football kit on a huge billboard. I don't have TV so I have no idea what it was about, but I used to watch River Cottage before denouncing television. I especially loved the one episode I saw of beyond river cottage where he slit the throat of a chicken and made a woman cry.

After seeing this advertisement I thought that Hugh had lost all credibility by wearing a football kit and standing next to that idiot Gordon Ramsey (are all Gordon's idiots?). Then last night I had a really strange dream that I went on holiday to Tokyo in Japan and I bumped into Hugh and started having a big argument with him about how crap all celebrities are and how they preach to us about doing good deeds and never do anything themselves except Bob Geldof. Hugh was especially nice and even cooked me nice meal. Of course if I did meet him in real life I probably wouldn't say anything as I'm a social phobic.

Monday 19 January 2009

Atheists rule the buses

I don't watch TV or listen to the radio. I flick through the news headlines and came across this one

Ironically this person actually brought this to my attention. I think it's a great campaign and think even more should be done. If this christian bus driver is refusing to drive a bus with an atheist advertisement, then from this day I will no longer buy anything from a christian business, or donate my money to any of their charities. Of course I won't do that as I am not that petty.

It's double standards as they are allowed to advertise their belief system and atheism is also a belief. A belief in reality, not some fairytale.

Religion is fear and oppression, atheism is freedom. If Christians are allowed to advertise then so should atheists. Atheists tolerate religion in their face everyday, so this guy should tolerate atheists. I wonder if he refuses to drive when Muslims or Jewish people get on his bus. And unknowingly he has been driving with many atheist passengers, I wonder if this bothers him to. Maybe he should set up his own christian bus service, where people can only get on with a pass stamped by a priest.
Yet again the Christians have shown what intolerant morons they are.

Friday 16 January 2009

Interesting, but mostly made up facts.

John Major based his colour scheme on a council estate.

Henry Sellers made the BBC.

Every man made object was once apart of some one's imagination, even high rises. (It's funny how things never turn out how you imagine them).

Richard is a vampire sucking the life out Judy.

Cottage cheese is really baby sick.

Meatballs were traditionally made from horses testicles.

You really could eat your hat if it was made of leather, a bit chewy though. (Actually that is true read it in any survival book, apparently you would need alot of water to digest it.)

Boredom leads to some odd things, maybe in my case. But I'm never bored, there is just so many things to do. I think people who are bored have no imagination.

I like filling up the blog world with useless nonsense, look out for more in the future. I may even post some of my poems. At least I admit my poems are bad unlike Jen Hadfield.

Thursday 15 January 2009

Pointless points

Apparently according to the British, the French are lazy. But I think the French are laid back, relaxed, and having a much better time than we are.

I think there is more value in doing a worthwhile job for less hours, than a job just to make money working 60+ hours a week. What is the point in working so many hours to make so much money that you have no time to enjoy the luxury's you can buy. Unless you love your job that much.

Also I think it's unfair for people to work for so many hours a week as they could work less hours and give someone else a job. Overtime steals jobs.

I don't work, but I look after children, the house and cook. If they are not jobs then why do people get paid for them.

I think women should stay at home and look after their children and should not be forced to go to work. Children are losing out because of stupid ideas. Even though some people would say my ideas are in the past. I think they make sense after all women are supposed to be nurturing and maternal, but many are now acting like men.

The biggest thing that puzzles me is feminism. I'm all for equality for both sexes, but I've come across many feminists who are who my opinion are not very feminine, and act like men. If men were to start a masculine movement I'm pretty sure they wouldn't start wearing dresses and make up and bitch like women.

I love being a woman and would hate to be competitive with men. Men and women are supposed to be lovers not fighters. Women do not look good with broken bent noses, missing teeth, yellowing skin from heavy drinking. No wonder there's so many single people.

Also I don't understand why some women are so picky, and expect some perfect man that doesn't exist. They are only made up in Hollywood by Homosexuals.

I've heard many women say why are all then good looking men gay. I've been to the gay village in Manchester and most of them weren't good looking at all. Some of them were butt ugly. The only good looking gays I know are the actors with are playing gays and are really straight.

In the kingdom of the blind, the one eyed man is king. That's a term coined in 1066 by Harold the conquerer after we successfully conned the Norman French into coming over here so we could take all their gold and con them into thinking they were in charge. Since that day all history has been a con, that's why we all speak French not.

Psychology in all it's glorious bullshit

Psychology in my opinion is total utter bullshit. Just like religion, it out to con and deceive people. Although it's entertaining and interesting to talk about it's still all made up.

The trick is that you read or see on telly something that vaguely resembles part of your personality and suddenly you make the rest of it fit and then become what you have read or heard.

Also I don't believe in personality, because as humans we change the way we act around different people. We are generally fickle, which suggests that we only react to our environment and to other people. What is personality when we are alone?

Mad people hear voices in their head, doesn't everyone? I am thinking words right now.

I also don't believe in a soul, the subconscious, spirituality or an afterlife. I don't need these fake comforts. I like the cold, bleak, biting reality. That's when you know you are really alive and this is it.

Also I don't believe anything I read or write, and I change my mind constantly.

Psychology is a great money maker. I don't know anyone who has been cured of their mental illness. I see lots of people self obsessed with everything about themselves and taking crappy personality tests in magazines. Ha ha ha, I've even done them myself when I was 16, and even thought back then, what a load of bullshit, or is it?

Thursday 1 January 2009

Well here goes another Labour year

Well 2008 was the grimmest year I remember. The summer was humid, dull and overcast and the winter has been the coldest I can remember for a while. Yesterday it was -5c where I live. Even the winter's are bad under Brown's Labour. Well apparently things are only going to get worse as we plummet into a dark bitter recession. Gorden Brown's practical admitted now that he's not going to be able to save the economy (even though he has been saying he as a plan to save us) because he is now saying the recession will be a test of character (not his character though) Yet again the responsibility falls to us because the government are incompetent.

Firstly it's all the dole scums fault as they are getting to much benefit, apparently. Well it's the government who set the rate of benefits so it's the government fault. Most people who receive benefits get £47.95 up to the age of 24 and £60.50 for over 25's a week, plus housing and council tax benefit.

When I was single I got £43.50 a week. When I moved to a council flat, it cost £5 a week electricity, £7 gas, £4 water, a couple of quid tv licence, about £15 on food from Aldi so I had about £11 a week for whatever else I needed. I would buy clothes from the charity shop and shoes at the market for £5 a pair that never lasted long as I would walk alot as I didn't want to waste money on the bus. It hardly give me enough to do anything, let alone go out drinking. I still don't get enough to do that. So I've learned how to make my own clothes. I have mis-matched furniture that I either been given or found in skips or on the street. Even my computer is really old and was given to me by my Mum's boyfriend which he got free from work when they were updating their computers, but it works. Lately I've discovered Freecycle where people give away unwanted stuff for free. So do you still think it's great living on benefits? It's already a test of character.

My partner had times where he had no electricity and would only have a bag of spuds and went out to some waste ground to make a fire to cook his food, this was only 7 years ago. Before that he had worked in heavy industry, and got injured, even though he should claim incapacity benefit he doesn't nor does he claim carer's allowance for me. He did voluntary work for a while until the place shut down. He can never find decent work because he is a big man, and always gets asked if he has a criminal record, which he hasn't. That was why he could never get on a university course because he looks thuggish, but he is the kindest person I know. Yet me on the other hand got given more opportunities because I'm a woman. I did try but I was too ill.

One of my friends who was struggling with a drug problem on benefits was so ill that she committed suicide at the age of 19, she was a lovely girl, so kind hearted, she just had a tough life and was in a really dark depression. This is the reality for many of us living on benefits on council estates, and on top of that we get bitter middle class people telling us we are scrounging scum. (My partner has piles of pay slips and had contributed for many years until he got injured) Yet I'm sure they wouldn't want to swap places with us. I'd would have loved to have had a non abusive upbringing and then cushy college and uni, then have an easy peasy office job. It may be boring but it's better than living with so much mental pain that I don't want to live most of the time, and have spent most of my adult life on medication.

I've totally digressed from what I was going to blog about, not that it matters as no one reads my blogs anyway. My point was that it's no bed of roses living on benefits. I agree that people shouldn't abuse the benefits system but they are making us all look bad when their are plenty of people who genuinely claim. But it will be us taking the brunt of the abuse when this recession bites. There's no room for empathy under Labours government. And to all you middle class out there who fear losing your jobs and homes so you don't have to live with people like me, we are not that bad, as long as you don't act like snobbish pricks we would get along with you, as we don't like to patronised we are human beings too.